It’s been 3 months today. Not easy. We miss her so much it is hard to breathe. There are moments where we can function, even laugh. Then we realize that the source of so much of our joy is watching us from heaven instead of playing in our arms. There is nothing fair or reasonable about it. I know I should try and hold on to the positives but on the anniversary days it is REALLY hard.

We just got back from a trip to Paris which was a wonderful distraction from our pain. We stayed with my sister and toured the city and museums. Veronica was supposed to join us for this trip, so we brought along some of her ashes. We scattered some with a view of the children’s play area in the Tullieries Garden and some with a view of the Eiffel Tower. We will always think of her when we see these two iconic Paris scenes.

Playing with our nephew Eric was a real treat on the trip and reminded us that having another child at some point will give us joy. We’ve started the process of IVF and PGD (Preimplantation Genetic Diagnosis) at Colorado Center for Reproductive Medicine and feel we are in very good hands. I’ll post more on that when there is good info to share.